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1. BroDan
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   Ok guys, I passed this massage on but the girl I gave the massage to is such true and what seems accurate reflection of me and what I am that I am finding it hard to read her language back,

   Please sit back, breathe slowly and try and connect with me on this, I'd love more of your amazing help on this guys.

   This is a totally new thing for me . . .

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   I don’t want to sleep with you.

   At first there was a connection, so deep, so profound that I felt you where simply filling the part of me that the last relationship left, as if you where healing me by taking care of me . . .

   Over time, I have cried, bled, suffocated and fallen apart to levels that I have never, ever, experienced before . . .

   Over the last 3 months I have experienced a darkness like never before, I now have temporarily labelled this sensation as ‘lonelyness’ . . .

   Now I have an idea that I am as every other being here with us today and see my self to be as you. I am as you a being that needs food, warmth and sunlight but most of all needs this kind of force that I have now realized can not be described with use of any word I know, no word I know can truly capture this feeling that I am experiencing now . . .

   How ever, there is one word that other people use to possibly describe this force I feel but feel it’s meaning is just not what I have been brought up to believe. In realization that I desire or more than likely need this force ‘I’ see that ‘I’ and ‘YOU’ are as any plant, tree, animal, being, creature or creation on this planet we share that equally requires this force to simply breathe and live, I feel I can now see that with out this force one would simply over time die.

   This word others use to describe this force is . . .

   LOVE.

   What I feel is that I now have a ‘better understanding’ of what LOVE actually is but say ‘I now have a better understanding’ as the LOVE I realize can never be mastered, calculated or ever fully understood, at least for now, ‘when grounded’ I LOVE what I see LOVE is.

   In the name of LOVE I will never, ever pull any one towards me, nor will cause my self any self harm to win LOVE, I will never entrap, try to own or cage exactly that that or whom I LOVE, in what ‘I feel’ I see the art is to release thy BELOVED to fly, be free as a bird, to let soar, grow and be totally free . . .

   Sweet heart . . . I think . . . I LOVE YOU.

   If one truly loves another I feel that as in my case that they will find the courage with in them selves to totally let go of every single though, emotion and ego driven condition that goes against being able to LOVE.

   This act is simply to ensure that thy BELOVED is never trapped, harmed, or caged by my desires or thoughts.

   Some say this is UNCONDITIONAL LOVE . . .

   If you can understand this then . . .

   We truly have some thing.

   Sweet heart . . . I think I LOVE YOU.

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   Any one connect or feel with me on this ?????

   Thanks guys, your words really help.

   Dan

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   Posted 2 months ago #

2. David
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   Dear Brodan....

   The problem of love and being loved... is you cant have it until you let it go.

   Until you no longer attach yourself to the idea that someone else will fulfill your desires you will always feel lonely and in need of company... let it go.

   As you so nicely put it..
   'If one truly loves another I feel that as in my case that they will find the courage with in them selves to totally let go of every single though, emotion and ego driven condition that goes against being able to LOVE.'

   There is no 'they' or 'themselves' it is just 'I' that is experiencing, even then... you must let that go too

   Spiritually speaking (Or just the way I look at it) love is without boudrys, without limitations, without conditions. without.... without.

   because true love is 'being without' it is not directed to one person or entity. it is first directed to within then to all... without exception. You will then find that there are hundreds if not thousands of people who are going through what your going through now.

   to transend love is very hard to do but not imposible, the rewards are endless,

   to love and be loved by another again is not imposible, but you will find the rewards similar to that of bubbles in water... having no substance and lasting just as long

   when I say you should let go...

   Does not mean you should no longer care.
   That you put yourself in self denial.
   that you restrict yourself from loving or being loved

   but it does mean...
   Recognising that the mind/ego will want you to look at it from the three discriptions above and probably more.

   Allways direct letting go, of what is happening within

   once again take care

   Posted 2 months ago #

3. Cassimere
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   Heavy

   Posted 2 months ago #

4. BroDan
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   David, you total, total Angel !

   Where are you based ? I'd love to personally deliver you a bottle wine and gigantic bunch of flowers !!! ha ha ! No seriously, I'm based in Brighton in the UK?

   Yeah, when I wrote that it was directed at one of the girls I've been spending time with and the day after she put me straight, I mean she totally ironed me out and any suspicions I had that she shared the same feelings towards me, she made it very clear she didn't yet is still so very keen to spend time with me??? Women = Complex !! ha ha ! Well that was that, sorted and behind me.

   Then last night Instead of looking for yet more company I decided to stay in and watch the worst film I've ever seen while alone, the film was terrible but it was great and got a good nights sleep to be up to as usual catch the sun rise.

   Then this morning instead of homing in on my phone and text messaging I decided to sort out what I call 'my time music' and listened to music from 7 am till 2pm, that was 5 hours of very melodic music but not mourn full. My god did I cry, my back was stagnant, completely knotted and I couldn't find a way to shift it. Finally with Yoga and Thai Chi managed to find these areas with in me that I managed to let go of and I cried, really deeply, then some more, then some more then before I knew it was dancing in flat to a Morcheba CD with people looking in at me from the block across the road !!! I was ecstatic, I felt whole new fresh energy enter my being which is fine as I've recently mastered how to re ground from high places !!!

   Amazing, totally amazing.

   I then cooked up an Italian sauce with tuna and went long-boarding down the sea front, that was UNREAL, people where smiling at me and kids waving, the sun glistened across the sea and the air was fresh and vibrant!!! I had no appointments, nothing I felt needed doing (I need a thicker duvet but thought I'd just wear more T-shirts while sleeping!! ha ha !).

   I could see that I had lost all desperation for company, that I was turning inwards and transending what I felt in to me, yes LOVE is infinite and I find my self with SO much time on my hands and money coming in from every where.

   This is crazy !!!

   Thanks so much for helping me see.

   Ok, I am still keen to care for others, I mean almost 'too keen!!' like that's a need I feel I need to regularly full fill but I suppose you feel the same in posting back to help me right??

   I feel I need to let go of this as well, but at least I'm past the desperate bit and I can tell I am as I've attracted so, so many new fresh people that I can see are going to be amazing business contacts, friends and possibly relationships.

   I can tell that this state of 'LOVE' (for what ever that means!) needs a lot of attention to keep, maybe at first?

   But I'm eating really, really well, sleeping a good 6 hours every night, have lots of fun every day working and am truly loving where I am now but again, thats an attachment !!! ha ha !

   Thanks David, your posting has done me wonders.

   Take care,

   Dan

   Posted 2 months ago #

5. BroDan
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   Something for you all, sit back, this is great !

   http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xfq_A8nXMsQ

   Here are the words:

   Ladies and gentlemen of the class of '97
   "WEAR SUNSCREEN!"

   If I could offer you only one tip for the future, "sunscreen" would be it.

   The long-term benefits of sunscreen have been proved by scientists,
   whereas the rest of my advice has no basis more reliable than my own meandering experience.
   I will dispense this advice NOW!
   Enjoy the power and beauty of your youth.

   Oh, never mind.

   You will not understand the power and beauty of your youth until they've faded.

   But trust me, in 20 years, you'll look back at photos of yourself and recall in a way you can't grasp now how much possibility lay before you and how fabulous you really looked.
   You are not as fat as you imagine.
   Don't worry about the future.
   Or worry, but know that worrying is as effective as trying to solve an algebra equation by chewing bubble gum.

   The real troubles in your life are apt to be things that never crossed your worried mind,
   The kind that blindside you at 4 pm on some idle Tuesday.

   Do one thing every day that scares you.

   Sing

   Don't be reckless with other people's hearts.
   Don't put up with people who are reckless with yours.

   Floss

   Don't waste your time on jealousy.
   Sometimes you're ahead, sometimes you're behind.
   The race is long and, in the end, it's only with yourself.
   Remember compliments you receive.
   Forget the insults.
   If you succeed in doing this, tell me how.

   Keep your old love letters.
   Throw away your old bank statements.

   Stretch

   Don't feel guilty if you don't know what you want to do with your life.
   The most interesting people I know didn't know at 22 what they wanted to do with their lives.
   Some of the most interesting 40-year-olds I know still don't.

   Get plenty of calcium.

   Be kind to your knees.
   You'll miss them when they're gone.

   Maybe you'll marry, maybe you won't.
   Maybe you'll have children, maybe you won't.
   Maybe you'll divorce at 40.

   Maybe you'll dance the funky chicken on your 75th wedding anniversary.

   Whatever you do, don't congratulate yourself too much,
   or berate yourself either.

   Your choices are half chance.
   So are everybody else's.

   Enjoy your body.
   Use it every way you can.
   Don't be afraid of it or of what other people think of it.
   It's the greatest instrument you'll ever own.

   Dance
   Even if you have nowhere to do it but your living room.

   Read the directions, even if you don't follow them.

   Do not read beauty magazines.
   They will only make you feel ugly.

   "Brother and sister together we'll make it through,
   Someday a spirit will take you and guide you there
   I know that you're hurting but I've been waiting there for you
   and I'll be there just helping you out
   whenever I can..."

   Get to know your parents.
   You never know when they'll be gone for good.

   Be nice to your siblings.
   They're your best link to your past and the people most likely to stick with you in the future.

   Understand that friends come and go,
   but with a precious few you should hold on.

   Work hard to bridge the gaps in geography and lifestyle, because the older you get,
   the more you need the people who knew you when you were young.

   Live in "New York City" once, but leave before it makes you hard.
   Live in "Northern California" once, but leave before it makes you soft.

   Travel

   Accept certain inalienable truths:
   Prices will rise.
   Politicians will philander.
   You, too, will get old.

   And when you do, you'll fantasize that when you were young,
   prices were reasonable, politicians were noble, and children respected their elders.

   Respect your elders.

   Don't expect anyone else to support you.
   Maybe you have a trust fund.
   Maybe you'll have a wealthy spouse.
   But you never know when either one might run out.

   Don't mess too much with your hair or by the time you're 40 it will look 85.

   Be careful whose advice you buy,
   but be patient with those who supply it.

   Advice is a form of nostalgia.

   Dispensing it is a way of fishing the past from the disposal,
   wiping it off, painting over the ugly parts and recycling it for more than it's worth.

   But trust me on the sunscreen.

   "Brother and sister together we'll make it through,
   Someday a spirit will take you and guide you there
   I know that you're hurting but I've been waiting there for you
   and I'll be there just helping you out
   whenever I can..."

   Everybody's Free, Everybody's Free
   To Feel Good!

   Thanks guys.

   Nemasthe.

   Dan

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   Posted 2 months ago #

6. David
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   Lol. Im just glad to help. Im not sure about being an angel though Im just an ordinary person wanting to give something back. If it helps then cool, if not then never mind. Either Way I let go and allow it to simply be.

   You crying is the release of old energy. letting go the old you for something better. or a better understanding of something or an improved spiritual undertaking either way you will still have to work at it. Just as you take up a new position in a job you have new responsibilities, new orders, just as important to remember, you enjoy the new position because it is something different, challenging and rewarding

   Now go... enjoy yourself and be happy

   David

   Posted 2 months ago #

7. BroDan
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   Ha ha ! Thanks David.

   I'm enjoying my self best I can but I have learned that my heart chakra is quite closed so still regularly feel this empty numbness across my chest.

   A fantastic masseur told me that as much Reiki, Tai Chi and Yoga I do as well as receive massages there's not much more I can do then do my best to be patient, it's very, very hard as I've found lady company opens my heart chakra in particular and make me feel Ok again.

   But I realise that I need to do this work on my own.

   The universe has it's laws and thought I don't believe it, if time is one of them then so be it.

   Catch you soon.

   Dan

   Posted 2 months ago #

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