"ugh, I feel angry ! don't be a journalist ! I want to tell her !"
Mary, I know how you feel. The anger, the pain, the love you have for your daughter and the concern for her life...
That is similar to the feelings I had when my son/nephew announced he felt that due to the economy, he had no choice but to enlist in the army. I have been a pacifist for most of my life, and have felt some guilt for my own military service. I do not want him to go.
But I realized that I can not live his life for him, any more than you can live your daughter's life.
When our children reach the age where they must make their own decisions, we must allow them to do so, counseling them, if they will allow us, honoring the decisions and hoping they make these decisions for the right reasons.
For me, the ultimate goal when raising a child is to raise a caring, loving human being who makes a contribution to society. It sounds like you have done a fine job, Mary.