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1. BroDan
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   Hello my Beautiful wise beings,

   I hope life is treating you nicely and that your are surrounded in nothing but love and light.

   Here I am once again looking for some keys that can really help me through these seemingly ever lasting turbulent days so if you have any thoughts on what I describe then please help me in posting back.

   It's self love I'm still mastering, I think.

   Since a hard parting with my x girlfriend 6 months ago I have discovered this powerfull, loving and masculine warrior with in me that I have come to realise is me, this is who I am and I can truly see that I am one very beautiful being. But I've created an illusion that I am so unique, so different to every one else that I cant find 'that' girl to connect with. Not any one will do and I see that I'd love to be that girl who has intellectuality to offer, this I have realised is what I'm looking for, a girl who is on par or something as such to where I am on in this path to Enlightment.

   How ever, certainly here in the west I very rarely meet some one who has that sort of intellectuality that satisfies me in conversation, even on a friendship level. I am so alone in my out look it's unreal, not that it bothers me, well it must do as here I am writing about it but I do know that I'd love to have that partner to exchange and share with.

   I may on the other hand have well mastered 'true' self love, last night when out dancing I for the first time danced as if I was alone in the room, totally alone, with my eyes shut I lost absolutely all fears of others view towards me, I danced as if I waas on another planet and know to many I would have come across as down right strange !!! But I really didn't care as I wasn't out to get love from any one else, or win some one over or impress some one, this is a massive thing for me to have achieved as I am or used to be very image conciouss.

   I totally lost my self 'in my self', this in turn had such a powerfull effect that I instantly went in to deep healing, I was laughing like a mad man at some points and felt giggly through and though,

   Then when I got home last night all my repressed emotional pains arose, again. I'd panned out nicely from post relationship break ups but last night I shifted some old stagnant energies with in me and felt my flesh deep with in tear, hard.

   What I was wondering is, do you think that what I'm feeling will pass or do we go on releasing for the rest of our lives so intensely?

   I dream of having some one to pour all this love I have the ability to breathe through me including showering that special girl with gifts and taking her around the world, I am seemingly needy because of this desire of mine?

   Also, do you think I should steer clear of a relationship so as to enable me to remain empty until my emotions have settled?

   If I never settle with in me should I accept to be alone for the rest of my life?

   Thanks so much for your time guys, if only we could meet over a nice hot cup of Indian tea !!

   Big hug.

   Dan

   xx

   Posted 1 year ago #

2. Starss
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   Do they have a group called MENSA near you? Intelligent people belong.
   Somewhere there is an intelligent lady looking for a guy like you...
   Meanwhile keep exploring you, enjoying you...

   Posted 1 year ago #

3. gatesofgrace
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   Brodan,

   This one doesn't "see" anything wrong, consider this only as you wake in the morning. The much overused term, "It's all good..." really should be implied. There remains a big piece of you that wants. Yes! This will pass! Imagine the creator playing out vignettes and you are his instrument to experience... a life line of sorts. Carry on! Soon you will "see" that all manner of things are being played out for you as well, whereby you are the god.

   Posted 1 year ago #

4. selfseeker
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   Dear Brodan,

   Whatever is happening is happening to the "body-mind" entity. We mistake it as "we". Let it happen, whatever happens. Make sure, you are able to see it all remaining unattached to whatever is happening.

   You are still restless ... & that is understandable. Read some good books on spirituality. I shall recommend :

   i) Man's eternal quest --- by Sri Sri Paramhans Yogananda
   ii) Journey to Self-realisation - by Sri Sri Paramhans Yogananda
   iii) I am That ---- by Sri Nisargdatta Maharaj

   The more you read, the more you would be able to see the this life in correct perspective. After that, there will come a stage when you will be ready to realise it all by 'yourself'.

   Whatever is happening to you, happens to most of the people at one time or the another. It is all within the process of growth. Everything is normal & is in control.

   Best of luck ...

   OM

   Posted 1 year ago #

5. BroDan
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   Oh wow, thanks guys.

   I have also come to realise that I have been putting pressure on my self to move some where hot and sunny to re start my life but think I'm running away from the emptiness in me instead of just going inwards.

   The biggest tool I have found to do this is to dance as I describe in my first post so as soon as the week end is here I'm going in deep again and keep shifting these emotions, it kind of scares me as the after and over the next few days I can see my self going through major release again, but I guess this needs to be done, in fearlessness I choose to live.

   I also need a break in my DJ career or something similar before I can move away, fingers crossed.

   You guys are unreal, always on cue !!!!

   Big hug to you all.

   Dan

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6. shin
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   "What I was wondering is, do you think that what I'm feeling will pass or do we go on releasing for the rest of our lives so intensely?"

   It will pass if the releasing is done properly, i.e. to release and not just to relive intense feelings to which one may get addicted to.

   "I dream of having some one to pour all this love I have the ability to breathe through me including showering that special girl with gifts and taking her around the world, I am seemingly needy because of this desire of mine?"

   You are needy if you _need_ to do this to feel good. You are not needy if you _want_ to do this with the right girl under the right circumstances.

   "Also, do you think I should steer clear of a relationship so as to enable me to remain empty until my emotions have settled?"

   Don't steer clear of relationships, steer clear of romantic relationships. Be aware that there any number of girls out there who are only too eager and willing to rescue you from your present state at a price you will only find out later.

   "If I never settle with in me should I accept to be alone for the rest of my life?"

   There are also any number of girls who have never settled in themselves. You won't have a problem finding one of them.

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7. YetAnotherSeeker
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   Hey, BroDan!

   I had some similar feelings to you some years ago. I was successful in my art, progressing in spirit, and knew I was good. But I was lonely, and at 35(at that time) I was about to resign myself to a series of short-term relationships, since that was my history up to then.

   Then I put it "out to the universe", if you will, that I was ready to meet my life partner.

   Long story short, I met a woman, we became friends, fell in love, and have recently celebrated 21 years together.

   Believe in what you want to attain, and you will usually find it.

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8. BroDan
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   "There are also any number of girls who have never settled in themselves. You won't have a problem finding one of them."

   Haaaa ahaaa ahaaaaaa ahaa . . . Shin you make me laugh, yes I know exactly what you mean, they are never ending ! In fact I even wonder if there is one girl out there who is settled in them selves and not so rapped up in fears as the one's I have dated.

   What amazes me is my ability to believe that not only will I one day find a girl who is actually settled in them selves but one that will share the same feelings with me. I'm not so bothered how long it takes to be honest as I love my career, life and from time to time dating and the funny chases.

   "Believe in what you want to attain, and you will usually find it."

   The power of belief to cause attraction, again I don't know how I maintain this positive out look as at the age of 31 have yet to have a break in my career, my friends think I'm mad, well my whole family do as well but I know my purpose in this life, it's very clear to me and I'm on it to 'win or die'. Nothing less will do for my being, this I feel is a sign of self love, best I know it at least.

   I'm not so much as lonely as just wanting to send and receive love with some one who most importantly as I've realised, 'I connect with'.

   You guys here are the only people I know apart from maybe 2 others I know out of the cyber world that I can speak to and connect as so, I really am pretty much alone with this open minded and stage enlightened I've cleared my self to.

   Life, cant complain.

   Big hug to you all.

   Dan

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9. abstractprophet
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   I remember before I met my current partner I was jamming with some musos one night and I went into this timeless song that went through these various lives with a women who I could sense was very close. It cresended in this almost orgasmic call to acknowledge our bond. A month later I met the woman who I am with today who in many ways helped transform me from a lazy and self obessed caterpillar into a butterfly still at times afraid to spread his wings. lol

   On the music front I am deeply humbled by the synchronicity surrounding what is transpiring in that part of my life at the moment. It appears that through letting go of the idea of who I though I was and clearing the way for Gods Grace to flow through ones life, how what was always desired after just naturally flows, with no desire yet as it is replaced by greatfulness and love for the true Creator within. Bands name is "His Majesties Imperial Herbsmen". I will post some stuff when I get some proper recordings, which should not be too long by the looks of things.

   Be Well

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10. gatesofgrace
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    ap,

    Wish you would have let the rest of us here help name the band. I have been very lucky to have named a few entities. In the west of Canada we met a couple and the wifee ran her own reclamation consultant firm. When she bought the co. she was looking for a new name. I was out west at the time and did a little research. i came up with Prataem Environmental. She put it to a vote with staff and it won. Means prairie in Latin.

    One young musician... i was his driving instructor, was looking for a band name and he said he will probably be on stage and he still wouldn't have one. Next time a saw him i told him i had a name for him. His band is some kind of metal, something or other. Anyway he was cute guy curly hair full lips. I offered the rest of the group should continue with this kind of image and so i told him, "Ladies Night Out" was a cool name. He said i could have royalties if they made it big. lol

    Now for your band... i imagine something for you that would bring to lite endangered species while having other measures of truth in it. The name that comes to mind is the "Bandicoots".

    Endangered species in Aussie land living mostly on their own.
    Bandicoots are mostly active at night.
    With their umbilical cords at birth, they climb into mommies pouch and nurture from her teats. Yet, in a very short time they are on their own trying to make a go of it.

    What a fitting description eh, mate!

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11. abstractprophet
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    Funnilly enough gates the band within the band (the rock jammin vibe) is called The Transupials. lol

    For the borderless reggae vibes though the name will remain. It dates back a couple of years to my previous band (and an indoor cricket team) where the guitarist in the band (The Honourable David Bushman) always used to say that my band would be Scotty Brimstone Plant and His Majesties Imperial Herbsmen. Obviously when Bushman and I decided to get some vibes going again the name rebirthed itself, although A Band Called Plant was also popular within the band.

    Is funny I have actually had a closer look at rasta faith of late and in looking at many of His Imperial Majesty Haile Selassie I's speaches envoke alot of the same principals as some of the gnostic gospels I have been looking at of late.
    Interestingly the Pistis Sophia was first discovered in Ethiopia from what I have seen.

    The Rasta believe that it was Selassie I (Jah Rastafari) who opened the 7 seals as prophesised in Daniel and Revelations as well as by Marcus Garvey. Now I can not say wether this is true or not but it would be foolish to deny that the birth of Rasta is probably one of the most significant religious movements of the 20th century. Obviously Jah deliver a man like Bob Marley (bigger than Elvis & the Beatles combined when you factor in the 3rd world) to forward the idea of a Black man as Messiah.

    Bless.

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12. BroDan
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    Hey abstractprophet.

    I love this;

    "A month later I met the woman who I am with today who in many ways helped transform me from a lazy and self obessed caterpillar into a butterfly still at times."

    It tout me that we don't achieve a solid state to us the ability to love, after all we are for ever spiritually growing and releasing so in many ways if the girls right, she right, what ever were going through.

    Now I'm viciously I'll, exploding liquid from everywhere shall we say. I cant help but feel it's my body yet further adjusting to the beliefs I seem to be constantly releasing. I will continue to fight to win, or die.

    Dan
    x

    Posted 1 year ago #

13. Starss
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    Hey Bro...talking of metamorphisis and you discuss illness??? About 6 weeks after
    a moving into a new relationship I had a terrible cold...and was going through a
    ton of change inside and out. I looked, felt, lousy, yet he kept me laughing and
    happy and the bad time passed. You may be releasing pent up negative energy in the
    form of change...welcome the changes...

    Posted 1 year ago #

14. abstractprophet
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    Ites brodan,

    Respects brother. In a way spiritual growth is similar to the life of a bananna; picked, ripened, peeled, eaten...... What is a bannana when it is eaten?

    Hope your feeling better. :o)

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15. BroDan
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    A bannana when it is eaten?

    Is a rush of endorphines !

    YES ! I have some in the cupboard ! Thanks abstractprophet, I'll have one now ! ha ha !

    Yeah, I most definitely welcome the changes, I've actually enjoyed this illness, it's made me sit still in my discomforts and come to more realisations and feeling a little more settled in my self, I'm nearly there now.

    I love hearing your wise words on here.

    Dan

    Posted 1 year ago #

16. abstractprophet
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    LOL - That is hilarious, "endorphines" lol

    I am feeling like a bananna now also.

    Always a blessing the call to look within. What is not a call though? ;o)

    As for being wise well I am called many things, although wise is not usually one of those things. lol

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17. BroDan
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    Ha ha ! Big Hug abstractprophet, big hug.

    I honestly have no one else in the world who I can connect with like I do with you guys here, I don't know if that's hope I'll meet another as us in flesh one day or weather I should work on being great full of what I already have !!?

    Yes the latter is in order but I cant keep this up for ever, I need to open my eyes further.

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